Lack of belief system pt3

The only thoughts, beliefs and feelings that you can ever be absolutely sure of are your own. You see and experience them in a way that no other person ever can or will. You have a perfect understanding of these things and these things alone. They are the only REAL things to you. Others will try to express their experiences to the best of their ability but will invariably fail to have you get it, in the same way that they do. It just is not possible, unless they can cause you to have the exact same experience that they do. It is in this way that we are always alone, no matter how close we get to people and no matter how many people we get close to. Our minds rail out against that being true. They do not accept it.

So we communicate with one another and share our experiences together. And although we do our very best to get others to see what we think and feel and believe, words are clunky. They mean different things to different people. Even when two people look up a word in the dictionary and say that they both understand the meaning, they often still are thinking two different things, even if only slightly. And when each word means something slightly different to each person, is it any wonder that whole paragraphs get misconstrued? When trying to send a person to the moon, even a single miscalculation, like say we point the Space Shuttle just a fraction of a percent off of the perfect angle will cause us to miss the moon by thousands of miles. The images and thoughts that come to my mind when I mention the word red are probably not the same images and thoughts that occur to you.

If we are to ever have even a prayer of understanding one another's hopes and dreams we have to communicate. Even though we get it wrong so often, we still have to make the attempt. Words are our primary source of communication.  You might be asking why all this is necessary. Well the main reason is, I want you to realize that I mean something slightly different when I use words that imply absolutes, things like fact and certainty, or if I say that I think or believe a certain thing. Outside of actual experiences that I have had, I do not believe in absolutes. What I mean when I say these things is, based on the research and testing that I have done on this particular thing, up until this point, I find it highly likely for this thing to be true. Now is that an awesome sentence or what? No, seriously it's great, but it's also a huge mouthful to repeat five hundred times a day. Instead, I say, I think this or I feel that way. It is a shorthand that is necessary for useful communication. If I were to constantly be reminding you that I am not sure if a thing is or it isn't because I haven't tested it fully you would probably think I am either too wishy-washy or too verbose to be worth talking to. I do make an effort not to use absolutes as much as others do, just as I make an effort not to be too indecisive seeming. Imperfect as it is, it is the best compromise that I have found. Just remember when I am using absolutes that what I mean is that this thing is very likely to be.

Since the only things that you can ever fully know occur within your own mind and body and so much of the universe occurs outside of them, there has to be a relatively safe and secure method of interfacing with reality, in a way that is not going to come crashing down around you, when you suddenly realize some new and powerful thing. I found a way. And I call it my lack of belief structure. I do not actually believe in anything. I know it sounds ridiculous. But it is true, I do not. I just think some things are more likely to be true than others.