We established sometime ago in a previous post that I am in fact
insane. If further proof of that concept bothers you, read no further.
All
day everyday data is received into our brains and although we may have a
hard time recalling things at certain times, none of it ever really
leaves. It just sits around waiting to be useful.
Sometimes, over long
periods of time, connections between seemingly unrelated pieces begin to
form into an overall picture that you would never have ever thought of
putting together.
Here are some of those things.
I believe,
that in my infancy, I met the being that the Christians call God. I gave
up a chance to remain where he was in order to be in service to and of
use to people here on Earth, not slavishly but in a loving, giving and
uplifting way. I believe that there are many many benevolent spiritual
beings that are greater than man and that very few if any crave
worship. Having met a god, I cannot truly be an atheist and agnostic
while close does not perfectly describe me either. My personal
preference has always been to say that I am not religious, though I am a
deeply spiritual person. A great deal of my adult life has been spent
in studying many different religions as well as a search for personal
enlightenment, empowerment and overall enrichment of life for myself and
others.
A lot of in internal work and forging has occurred to
bring me to the point where I am today. And while the path never ends, I
believe that I am a perfectly designed tool for improving the world and
the lives of those who live upon it. Yes, I said it. I'm a tool. And I
am proud of it. But where is the proper venue for this tool to be put to
best use?
It would seem, at first, that the best way to change
the world in a positive manner would be through politics since nearly
all government seems corrupt in one way or another. But there is so
much red tape involved in getting into politics. A great deal of it
comes down to a popularity contest one which often devolves into mud
slinging. And even once you finally get your foot in the door, it seems
that it is impossible to get anything done without shady back room
dealings. That is not for me. Besides politics is more about making laws
that govern life, not about living it in a positive way. I have tried
to see myself as a politician and I just can not do it.
What about
religion? It would seem to be a lot more my speed. Though most current
organized religion is often more about guilt and manipulation than good
living. So maybe I could start a new religion, one with a different
overall framework. When I was younger, I was a Jehovah's Witness for
several years, at a time when I had no friends. As a result, I would take
my Bible to school and read it in my free time. Some of the kids used
to make fun of me, calling me Reverend Jim. I laughed it off but never
really thought about it at the time. And at some other point in my life
there was jokingly a Church of Jim that included the philosophies of
myself and another Jim with whom I was close friends. Now, though, I can
very easily see myself as both priest and teacher of the good word. But
what word would that be?
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