Vision. What you see, you create.pt2

Yesterday, we talked about how my vision ten years ago for how I wanted things to look today did not turn out quite the way I actually wanted it to.  It was mentioned that specific things were just the way I wanted them to be, but others were not.

And therein lies the key. The things that I was specific about came to pass. The things that  I wanted but only imagined in a vague sort of way either did not happen or went horribly wrong.
Some people would say the fact that I got any of the things that I wanted was sheer luck and I should be happy with my results. And I am. I am ecstatic that many of the things we worked so hard for turned out the way we wanted them to.

We, me and my chosen family, no longer live in separate apartments. We have a house to call our own. Not including the house itself, our debts have dropped dramatically. Our home is a peaceful, nonjudgemental environment, where people can feel free to be themselves, as long as who they are is not a danger or threat to others within the home. People can let their guard down here, reflect on their lives and relationships and can tear down the parts of who they are that they do not like and begin the process of personal reconstruction.

Every bit of that was something I very specifically wanted to make real. It was not luck. It was a vision of how things could be, backed up with enough desire to cause the actions necessary to make that vision a reality. Concentrated effort made our home and its current environment what it is today. Not luck.

Just as the parts that did not turn out well were not bad luck. They were simply poor planning or in some cases not planned for at all. But the great thing about time is it brings us experience. Before starting on this grand adventure it was something completely new to me and I had no idea what sort of pitfalls lay ahead.

Now that I have had some practice living in and working with the people in our home I have a much better idea of what to expect. I can and have adjusted my vision and goals accordingly. It is more fully fleshed out, less vague. Before I was literally creating something out of nothing. I had a blank table in front of me with a single puzzle piece on it. The level of specificity necessary to create the whole puzzle exactly as I wanted it would have been nearly impossible to achieve no matter how long was spent planning it.

Things are different now. A lot of what we intended to create we have. What we have now is a puzzle that is more than half put together. I just get to work with my family to find or create the missing pieces. And once we do, then we'll scale the camera back and start working on an even larger puzzle.